My Christmas

Aha..after many Christmas celebrations come ‘n go. d heart of Christmas finally gets real to me since last nite. Well, there’s always something special from each Christmas celebration, there were even many special things actually; d people, d decorations, ‘n stuffs, but Christmas eve was really d peak!! It’s like wat a song says "It isn’t Christmas till it happens in ur heart". And there was truly something tat touched me right in d heart frm wat Pastor Charles Lopez told us on our Christmas eve. He told us loads of great things, but I can’t tell ya d whole things he sed (I cud av been  a priest if i cud do so:) So, tis is what my poor memory can rememba.
’twas d story he told us tat’s really attached to my mind,,it’s my most fav part^^
He told us a story of a FLY on an airplane. Here’s d short version of it (d original version is a lot better ‘n funnier than tis:( to anyone who attended da same church wif me last nite pls add..). Shortly, there was a passenger on an airplane. He sat on his chair, wear his seatbelt, n enjoyed his flight..until..there was somethin tat’s rily annoyed him. It was a STRANGE FLY, who KEPT FLYIN’ over here and there on a FLYIN’  AIRPLANE. Wen d passenger juz couldn’t take it any longer, he called d fly to come to him ‘n asked him a question, "Strange Fly, why d’u seem so busy flyin on an aeroplane tat’s already flyin? Why don’t you just sit back and relax??" D strange fly then replied "I have to keep flying b’cuz tis plane would also stop flyin if I stop movin my wings."
"What d’u mean?" the man sed.
"It is my wings tat makes this big plane flyin. tis plane wud fall if I stop flyin" replied d strange fly who then flew to another spot on d plane ‘n left the man  alone.
After around 15 minutes l8er the strange fly came back to tat man and sed "I’m tired of flying. I don’t have any strength left to fly anymore. What should I do?"
The man replied, "Go to the cockpit ‘n you’ll find d answer."
d strange fly did wat the man told him to do. he went to the cockpit ‘n saw a man there. he asked "Sir, what r you doing here?"
"I am driving this plane. I have to make sure that all the passengers here arrive to their destination." answered that man. That strange fly still hadn’t get d answer tat he came back to d first man, "I still haven’t got d answer. Tell me, what should I do?"
The man answered "Look out!! You see those big wigs out there? Those are d wings that keep this plane flying. Have you  met the man in the cockpit?"
"Yes, I have. But who is him?"
"He is d pilot of this plane. He is d man who drives this plane and make sure that all of us will get to our destination. So, now what r you doing?  All you have to do now is to sit back and enjoy the flight!"
tat simple story has really touched me in d heart. It reminds us tat our life is actually not our project, it’s our Creator’s project. And as He has come to Mary through the baby Jesus, He has also come to each of us,,to be the pilot of our plane no matter how bad d circumstances we av ‘n bring us to the destination He has set for us. And tat the same as Mary, we also have one duty. It’s to say "Let it be to me as You said.(",)
Merry X-mas everyone ‘n happy holidays too!!!

Me, OuT oF MisT,,v(”,)

"Wherever you go, go wif all your heart,,^.^"
–Confucius

Some songs and sayings say that Monday is the worst day of all. Juz mention "Manic Monday", a song from the 80es, which calls that day as a ‘runday’. Most people hate Monday cuz agen they’ve to face the hard life at work or school after they had a great time off on a shiny-Sunday. Monday is quite tough for me, but Wednesday is even worse:<

I thougt this Wednesday would stiLL be as worse as any other Wednesdays I had or even worse ‘cuz I got soo many things to deal wif. buT I was so wrong! It’s still a runday for me but I didn’t think if everyhing would go juz fine.
da first thing made me thought that ystrday would be a disaster was that I had to be in class very early in d morning, while there was a deadline for my assingment ‘n I hadn’t finished it tat morning of d D-day:D Umm..it was a group assignement actually,,and each group should be consist of only 2 people. What happened was tat both I and my friend claimed that we’re B.U.S.Y. that  none of us managed to finish it. I was nearly hopeless when I realised tat I only had an hour for break before I got to go for tutoring ‘n it was even worse wif m’fren since she had no time at all for break. Desperately, I decided to use tat only one hour to finish my task ‘n thankfully I could finish it on time wif my loyal bestfren beside me ‘n kept supporting me by sayin "hepsi, u  gotta do it really quick or else I’d leave u." hahaha…quite selfish but it works! Thx, DoM!!!
Another problem, was tat I did not prepare any new materials for tutoring. huhuhu…in that kind of situation I used to be panic, buT yesterday was an exeption. I felt really OK n I even spent a few minutes to see some books before I went tutoring and omG I never thought tat I’d find a booK tat’s soo me,,i’ts juz soo match wif da problem I’ve been strugglin wif for soo long. I’ve been expecting to find such book but I didn’t knw any. t’was such a big surprise to accidentally find it! wat a Wednesday!
Now move on to another good thing. I and m’student Zara no longer have awkward silence:) We have better tutor-student relationship since her b’day. she seemed to be quite touched wen I gave er a b’day gift cuz her boyfrnd didn’t even greet er a "happy b’day!" and they finally broke up cuz she thinks tat Jason’s a person who’s so full of himself. Her mom actually did give her 2 rings as gift but she never wears it cuz she sed it’d make her look as if she’s engaged. m’gift was not even better than her mom’s I’m sure, but a sweeT thing, she gave me a hug of thx then. I also finally get used to her english ‘n found out tat we have some similar interests tat we could ave a fun conversation.
Zara’s mom and dad were apparently still in england tat there was nobody supervising me tat day which also means tat "No working under pressure for today!!". hohoho..we only browsed some pics of Tokyo for her Geo homework then we spent 2.5 hours more for editing her profile on Bebo and doing some silly tests on Facebook. We got a real nice song by Colbie Caillat titled "Bubbly" for her profile on Bebo. dat song was new to our ears but it juz catched on to us very quickly.  On the facebook test she got some new names like Z Detective for her detective name, Princess Berlian for her popular name (sounds awkward to me), n Captain Freedom for her heroic name (I was muchly inspired by Braveheart wen I told er to choose ‘Freedom’ for the most patriotic word firstly comes to mind. It’s still d best movie eva!! ‘n t’was the most touching part wen William Wallace sed "Freedom" at d end of his life, before he was hanged ‘n quartered. huhuhu..it was rily sad:(.
soo..tht’s juz how my wednesday turned to be well. I finally enjoy things I’ve to do at least for tat day. bUt d heart of my problem stays still. It’s tat I feel tat I haven’t found sUmthin m’heart rily2 wants to do n I need to find out wat it is.
Thankfully tat book I’ve juz bought could give me some poiters to get me out of this mist.  It says I need to do suMthin match wif the values I have, nOt only wat others told me to do. Hmm,,it reminds me to a test I had done in d short term of sKuL of Ministry. d result was tat I’m poorest in teaching ‘n my second worst score was in leadership (hohoho..I knew it:D), my best score was for d gift of compassion (dunno d accuracy of d test). soo,,tat sumthin I’m lookin forward to do can’t be about teaching or leading. might be something humanitarian. as I n m’fren have passed d sKuL of ministry then nOw we’re considering to join Community Based Unit for next year, where people serve to help d HIV-infected people  and d drugs addicts. sounds great bUt I’m not sure I can, yet I doubt if I’d pass the 3 months of trials where we have to attend our church an hour before at 6 in d morning cuz tat’s wen d first sermon starts. I’d choose to stay longer under my warm blanket rather than waking up tat early. tat would be sooo hard. Mrs.Minamoto, my lecturer for American studies also told us tat sucH community service are highly appreciated in the US. we can get certificate for doing such citizen duty n it’d be very valuable when we aplly for job. but tat’s in America:D But I’ll consider it still, esp. after I read tis from Leo Buscaglia:
"Man has not yet learned to work for the joy of work, learn for the sake
of growth, create for the expression and the exaltation in the act, or
to love simply for the pleasure of loving: he still requires a reward.
Until a man learns to do these things, hope will have to be his basic
motivating force. In work, he’ll require more wages and better titles;
in knowledge, he’ll require degrees and diplomas; in creativity, he’ll
require recognition; in love, he’ll require assurance. Until he
appreciates that each of these are their own reward, he’ll need hope as
his crutch. There is nothing wrong with hope; it is simply the second
best thing. For love goes beyond hope. Hope is a beginning. Love is forever."
Hmm..it’s true a saying tells if the heart of a problem is the problem of heart.