Me, OuT oF MisT,,v(”,)
"Wherever you go, go wif all your heart,,^.^"
–Confucius
Some songs and sayings say that Monday is the worst day of all. Juz mention "Manic Monday", a song from the 80es, which calls that day as a ‘runday’. Most people hate Monday cuz agen they’ve to face the hard life at work or school after they had a great time off on a shiny-Sunday. Monday is quite tough for me, but Wednesday is even worse:<
I thougt this Wednesday would stiLL be as worse as any other Wednesdays I had or even worse ‘cuz I got soo many things to deal wif. buT I was so wrong! It’s still a runday for me but I didn’t think if everyhing would go juz fine.
da first thing made me thought that ystrday would be a disaster was that I had to be in class very early in d morning, while there was a deadline for my assingment ‘n I hadn’t finished it tat morning of d D-day:D Umm..it was a group assignement actually,,and each group should be consist of only 2 people. What happened was tat both I and my friend claimed that we’re B.U.S.Y. that none of us managed to finish it. I was nearly hopeless when I realised tat I only had an hour for break before I got to go for tutoring ‘n it was even worse wif m’fren since she had no time at all for break. Desperately, I decided to use tat only one hour to finish my task ‘n thankfully I could finish it on time wif my loyal bestfren beside me ‘n kept supporting me by sayin "hepsi, u gotta do it really quick or else I’d leave u." hahaha…quite selfish but it works! Thx, DoM!!!
Another problem, was tat I did not prepare any new materials for tutoring. huhuhu…in that kind of situation I used to be panic, buT yesterday was an exeption. I felt really OK n I even spent a few minutes to see some books before I went tutoring and omG I never thought tat I’d find a booK tat’s soo me,,i’ts juz soo match wif da problem I’ve been strugglin wif for soo long. I’ve been expecting to find such book but I didn’t knw any. t’was such a big surprise to accidentally find it! wat a Wednesday!
Now move on to another good thing. I and m’student Zara no longer have awkward silence:) We have better tutor-student relationship since her b’day. she seemed to be quite touched wen I gave er a b’day gift cuz her boyfrnd didn’t even greet er a "happy b’day!" and they finally broke up cuz she thinks tat Jason’s a person who’s so full of himself. Her mom actually did give her 2 rings as gift but she never wears it cuz she sed it’d make her look as if she’s engaged. m’gift was not even better than her mom’s I’m sure, but a sweeT thing, she gave me a hug of thx then. I also finally get used to her english ‘n found out tat we have some similar interests tat we could ave a fun conversation.
Zara’s mom and dad were apparently still in england tat there was nobody supervising me tat day which also means tat "No working under pressure for today!!". hohoho..we only browsed some pics of Tokyo for her Geo homework then we spent 2.5 hours more for editing her profile on Bebo and doing some silly tests on Facebook. We got a real nice song by Colbie Caillat titled "Bubbly" for her profile on Bebo. dat song was new to our ears but it juz catched on to us very quickly. On the facebook test she got some new names like Z Detective for her detective name, Princess Berlian for her popular name (sounds awkward to me), n Captain Freedom for her heroic name (I was muchly inspired by Braveheart wen I told er to choose ‘Freedom’ for the most patriotic word firstly comes to mind. It’s still d best movie eva!! ‘n t’was the most touching part wen William Wallace sed "Freedom" at d end of his life, before he was hanged ‘n quartered. huhuhu..it was rily sad:(.
soo..tht’s juz how my wednesday turned to be well. I finally enjoy things I’ve to do at least for tat day. bUt d heart of my problem stays still. It’s tat I feel tat I haven’t found sUmthin m’heart rily2 wants to do n I need to find out wat it is.
Thankfully tat book I’ve juz bought could give me some poiters to get me out of this mist. It says I need to do suMthin match wif the values I have, nOt only wat others told me to do. Hmm,,it reminds me to a test I had done in d short term of sKuL of Ministry. d result was tat I’m poorest in teaching ‘n my second worst score was in leadership (hohoho..I knew it:D), my best score was for d gift of compassion (dunno d accuracy of d test). soo,,tat sumthin I’m lookin forward to do can’t be about teaching or leading. might be something humanitarian. as I n m’fren have passed d sKuL of ministry then nOw we’re considering to join Community Based Unit for next year, where people serve to help d HIV-infected people and d drugs addicts. sounds great bUt I’m not sure I can, yet I doubt if I’d pass the 3 months of trials where we have to attend our church an hour before at 6 in d morning cuz tat’s wen d first sermon starts. I’d choose to stay longer under my warm blanket rather than waking up tat early. tat would be sooo hard. Mrs.Minamoto, my lecturer for American studies also told us tat sucH community service are highly appreciated in the US. we can get certificate for doing such citizen duty n it’d be very valuable when we aplly for job. but tat’s in America:D But I’ll consider it still, esp. after I read tis from Leo Buscaglia:
"Man has not yet learned to work for the joy of work, learn for the sake
of growth, create for the expression and the exaltation in the act, or
to love simply for the pleasure of loving: he still requires a reward.
Until a man learns to do these things, hope will have to be his basic
motivating force. In work, he’ll require more wages and better titles;
in knowledge, he’ll require degrees and diplomas; in creativity, he’ll
require recognition; in love, he’ll require assurance. Until he
appreciates that each of these are their own reward, he’ll need hope as
his crutch. There is nothing wrong with hope; it is simply the second
best thing. For love goes beyond hope. Hope is a beginning. Love is forever."
Hmm..it’s true a saying tells if the heart of a problem is the problem of heart.
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